I suppose this is a bit of a rant type journal. If you don't wanna hear about my crap, don't read xD

I've been sick the past few days, and I'm feeling better physically now. But emotionally I'm still in the crapper. Between school and my situation at home, I'm stuck in the clouds.

I'm so far behind on my school work that it's ridiculous. I've got 8 1/2 credits, which puts me as a Sophmore. I'll be turning 18 tomorrow (I'll continue ranting about this later). That's bad. I'm at the point where I don't know what to do. If I stick with my schooling, I'll be in school for AT LEAST another year. Or I could get my GED. But GEDs have the stigma of being not as good as a Highschool Diploma. I don't know what I want to do.

I'd like to move out of my house because sometimes I seriously can't stand my family. And I feel severely unappreciated here. I take care of the house and everything, yet I get no thanks, no appreciation. In fact, it's the other way around. I get made fun of for cleaning. At least by my siblings. My parents are partial about it I suppose. My mom thanks me when it's done. And my dad doesn't say anything really, which I would assume is better than him constantly asking me to clean. But anyways, it'd probably be best for me to just move out and get my own apartment.

That would involve me getting my GED though, so I can get a job and everything. I'll also need a car. I guess it's possible to get those. Although getting my GED is one of the problems I mentioned earlier.

My birthday's tomorrow. I'll be 18. I'm probably supposed to be happy and everything, but all I have is dread. I don't want anyone to acknowledge it. I want it to be just another day. My birthday is going to be crap either way, so why even bother. It just marks the beginning of my "adult" life, and the fact that now things are going to go on me. I just want to leave.